My Thoughts

LOVE

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 10:20:13 +0300

LOVE

Play With me

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 21:29:50 +0300

Play With me

"Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very..."

Sat, 30 May 2009 13:53:01 +0300

“Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled…old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.”

- Grey’s Anatomy

"It’s simple word , but hard to find, to feel, to trust, to keep .. or even to think"

Thu, 28 May 2009 04:34:27 +0300

“It’s simple word , but hard to find, to feel, to trust, to keep .. or even to think”

"It’s always about Pain .. We Cause the pain .. or others give us some pain .. or we pain..."

Fri, 22 May 2009 02:38:54 +0300

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It’s always about Pain .. We Cause the pain .. or others give us some pain .. or we pain ourselves .. or we don’t know why there’s a pain ..

There will always be a cure .. even we don’t notice .. but It will help

”

- Inspired

It wasn't a surprise

Sun, 10 May 2009 00:02:53 +0300

When You hear something you expected
then It wasn’t a surprise ..

When something happen you knew about
then It wasn’t a surprise ..

When You find out you were cracked after doing something wrong
then It wasn’t a surprise ..

When You keep looking more & more about the truth but you can’t find
then It wasn’t a surprise ..

When you find something you already imagined before
then It wasn’t a surprise ..

What surprise you, Is something you could think about .. but your heart never believe .. because you were just you .. and It’s not a surprise ..

I hate pictures

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 03:19:53 +0300

I’ve always said that to many of people I met .. I don’t like taking pictures for me or with friends or wherever I’m .. I just don’t like that ..

But I started to think about a reason for ..

And It Started with the common question .. Why We take pictures ?

And the common answer too , It’s for memories .. to remember someday that we took that picture in Alexandria, or took this one while we were doing some of weird things in our life or just it’s a picture ..

It’s all about memories .. and for me, Memories are so much bad thing in life .. Thanks to memories I lose people, I lose love and trust .. I lose the power that keep me moving on ..

And It’s all back to memories .. Memories we make in prictures, videos, meetups .. Just Memories …

I don't want to Dream

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 21:34:52 +0200

I hate dreams , Dreams are full of things we can not do .. so we dream .. They are full with things we really love but we can’t do it so It’s called Dreams ..

Why We Dream „ Even we didn’t think about something before we sleep , or even thought about it in our life .. but we just dream about it .. How come our mind think about such things that we even don’t think about it when we are awake !!

Do we have to dream ? Can we Avoid Dreaming about such things ? Or even Avoiding all dreams ! ..

This is even a dream ..

To Stop Dreaming ..

But We can’t ..

Because It’s a Dream ..

We Can't Escape

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 01:45:07 +0200

It’s following us ..

Everywhere we go ..

It’s like our shadow ..

Awake or Sleep ..

Happy or Sad ..

It’s because of one thing ..

We always try to hide ..

We always try to show ..

Doing our best ..

Or Moving away ..

Telling the truth ..

Or Lying to each other ..

We just Can’t Escape from Love

Memories In Town {1}

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 04:37:31 +0200

I remember a day, The first day I felt some feeling I will never forget .. That friend and neighbor really care for me and It wasn’t any ordinary person ..

In that time I never knew how I will be right now and remembering this small memory and wish It could happen again ..

Day after day, I get to remember more memories, that got me back to when I was a kid .. a small kid in another town after I returned back to country , remembering all those good friends that I left 8 years ago .. remembring the memories of playing, in school and after school, remembring doing homework and my family around me .. old streets and neighbors I loved ..

Those were the real best days of my life and each time I hardly keep my tears and feelings inside and trying to live the moment I have right now in town and between new people , Good or bad It doesn’t matter but I think I have to deal more with this and let those parts of my life away for sometime ..

"I May Not be The Most Important person in Your Life, But I hope that One Day,When You Hear My Name,..."

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 23:09:46 +0200

“I May Not be The Most Important person in Your Life, But I hope that One Day,When You Hear My Name, You smile & say That’s My Friend”

- A Friend’s Personal Message

حياة ميتة

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 23:18:43 +0200

لقد كانت حياة .. مليئة بما تراه العين .. أناس في كل مكان ..

منهم الجيد
منهم القبيح
منهم من لا تعرفه
و منهم من تثق به

إنه عالم كبير ..
عالم تعيش فيه أحياناً بإرادتك..
و أحياناً تعيش فيه رغماً عن إرادتك..

عالم يجب أن تصارع الآخرين فيه ..
و أحياناً أن تصارع نفسك..
من أجل بقائك..

عالم لا يمكن تعميره بقدر تخريبه..
الكل له أطماع ..
و ليس كل الطمع طمع ..

عذراً.. لكنها ليست بحياة
فأنت ميت و لا تشعر ..
أنت مجرد آلة .. ربما لديها بعض الإحساس ..
و لكنه إحساس محدود ..

إنها حياة .. ميتة ..

"Love is a Verb, Not Just a Feeling"

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 15:03:46 +0200

“Love is a Verb, Not Just a Feeling”

7 Things About Me

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 17:02:00 +0200

I’m Separating my Posts to here and the iHisham one .

So I’ve Been Tagged By Ahmed Naguib (TECHNROLLA) to talk about 7 Things about Me, but I can’t reach to tag other 7 Guys so Let’s just talk =)

I’m so simple and complicated in same time .. It’s just me and I don’t know why .. All People know me very well that I’m sensitive .. Just 19 years old in My 2nd Year in Commerce College At Mansoura University ..
Web Design is the thing I love .. 4 Years ago I started step by step to work on web designs, First of all as Educational Project Coordinator online .. It’s the most thing that made me learn how to design and new ways of designing .. Got Connected to Many Developers either in town or Online ..
I’m a big fan of Volunteer Work .. I started volunteer work with GYP Egypt , Fighting HIV/AIDS through some successful projects, now I’m An Assistant Representative of GYP Egypt and I’m working on Online Campaigns for some UN Organizations ..
I hardly Find someone I can trust .. This is the main issue I could face most of time .. With No Shrink It needs someone to talk with .. someone you can know .. hanging out with .. I had this person once but Apparently Gone With the wind ..
I can’t imagine my life without this small family, Dad .. Mom .. Brother and Sister .. Can’t forget My Cat Lelli .. She’s The Best thing in my life now ..
I find my Interesting Music in Classic, Soft Music .. Most of Times with KennyG .. In Love With All Ayda Al-Ayoubi Albums .. As for Movies (A Walk To Remember is No.1 On My list) mostly watching The Best Of Action or TV Shows like 24 . Grey’s Anatomy and House are on the list too ..
I have lots of dreams .. Many Things I want to do .. But It’s not that simple .. Dream and Happen .. I just try my best to achieve goals .. but It needs good people to help and achieve it ..

I'm going away

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 23:16:45 +0200

I was wrong about so many things happened . I didn’t notice that I can be easily deceived .. but It happens ..

So I’ll be away .. for a long time of my life .. At least I will try to forget anything happened although It’s the hardest thing to forget ..

But I’ll Always Remember a question that I will find no answer for .. Let’s keep that away too .. Nothing Deserve ..

We Were One

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 20:42:32 +0200

Deny Everything,

Deny The Memories,

Deny The Trust,

Deny Those Good Days or Bad Days,

Deny The Feel ,

I’m going away, So you won’t have to care more ,

I may back, I may not , I don’t know ,
I just knew just 1 thing ,

We were ONE

"In depression this faith in deliverance, in ultimate restoration, is absent. The pain is..."

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 02:11:39 +0200

“In depression this faith in deliverance, in ultimate restoration, is absent. The pain is unrelenting, and what makes the condition intolerable is the foreknowledge that no remedy will come- not in a day, an hour, a month, or a minute. If there is mild relief, one knows that it is only temporary; more pain will follow. It is hopelessness even more than pain that crushes the soul. So the decision-making of daily life involves not, as in normal affairs, shifting from one annoying situation to another less annoying- or from discomfort to relative comfort, or from boredom to activity- but moving from pain to pain. One does not abandon, even briefly, one’s bed of nails, but is attached to it wherever one goes. And this results in a striking experience- one which I have called, borrowing military terminology, the situation of the walking wounded. For in virtually any other serious sickness, a patient who felt similar devistation would by lying flat in bed, possibly sedated and hooked up to the tubes and wires of life-support systems, but at the very least in a posture of repose and in an isolated setting. His invalidism would be necessary, unquestioned and honorably attained. However, the sufferer from depression has no such option and therefore finds himself, like a walking casualty of war, thrust into the most intolerable social and family situations. There he must, despite the anguish devouring his brain, present a face approximating the one that is associated with ordinary events and companionship. He must try to utter small talk, and be responsive to questions, and knowingly nod and frown and, God help him, even smile. But it is a fierce trial attempting to speak a few simple words.”

- William Styron, Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness

(a book which captures the actual experience of depression like few others ever have)
(via psychotherapy)

"I Do Forgive who still honest .. and they are so rare"

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 15:44:54 +0200

“I Do Forgive who still honest .. and they are so rare”

A Year ago

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 21:21:00 +0200

The Most beautiful moments were a Year ago .. The Hard Moments were also a Year ago ..

A year ago .. when It was white .. so much white that you could just remember two close colors .. very close .. but It was simply white ..

Imagine It’s like a snow land .. Big space of white land .. and you have a very small couple of balls .. red and rose .. You can’t feel a problem because It’s just so small balls in a big white space ..

Then, You just started to fill that space with so green trees .. so much trees .. planting trees everywhere .. You think It’s gonna be more beautiful with those trees and plants ..

But now , You can’t see the white space neither those small couple balls .. All you can see is a fire in those trees .. Something burnt those trees .. You never knew this will happen sometime .. but It did .. But you know the cause of this very well ..

and after all this .. you can’t bring the white land nor those colored balls back to your view .. You were the reason of this .. and You will have to deal with it .. You even can’t go somewhere else .. It was all what you have in your life .. and you runied it ..

"Mistake is always wrong .. You May Learn but It’s still a Mistake"

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 20:12:50 +0200

“Mistake is always wrong .. You May Learn but It’s still a Mistake”